I know this might be completely unintersting...

And it certainly has nothing to do with offshore books et al. but i just felt like posting it.

I finished work today at around 2.00 am, working my ass off till then, and went to a local bar to have a few drinks to saturate my drinking habit before hitting the sack. After a drink or too, i noticed an old girlfried at the bar. She came along and offered me a shot, dont know if that's a regular thing in u.s. bars, but it's quite common here. So we had a that orange tequila. And i bought her one afterwards and we started talking.

Now, when she first came up to me and talked to me i was really feeling tired, drained from work and in general a bit shitty and run down, so i wasnt much of a conversationist. After a few drinks a felt much better. So, to cut a not so long story short, we talked for a while, and i started re-acquaintanting myself with her, and remembering why i liked her that much a couple of years ago, her personality being kind and clever and giving.

At some point she started coming on to me, not in a very overt way but she nevertheless did so. But i was being rather numb in terms of feelings, and we kept talking on and on about our worries, troubles and interests. It was getting late, me and her friends were the only ones left in the bar, and although i was thinking, despite it being late, of asking her to go out for another drink to another bar with me, i didn't, i dont even think i offered a proper goodbye...

Alright, here's my problem now, it's twofold. First of all, i am questioning myself why the fvck i d bring home and do anything to get in the sack with some flashy, sexy no good bitch i ve only just met, why would i get so obsessive on how to get her in bed with me there and then, and i cant find the will or get in the mood to, ask a girl, i like as a person, as a sentient being, and i kinda fancy sexually, for a drink back home...

My other problem, is what i suspect some fellow gamblers here share, my drinking, well, it's started to become problem drinking. Booze is such a depressive and there's a high price to pay for that short lived high it offers, well i am paying the price of a heavy drinking two month period. I ve always liked drinking, and i still do, but lately i just dont like my mood swings, my daily irritability, and this habit of having to down a minimum of two or three rum and cokes a night to chill. I know alcoholism is not that close, or is it?, but still i ve started to feel uncomfortable with this habit, but i keep doing it... That ties in with my mood today, besides my workload, i was just not feeling any good after a lot of heavy drinking this week, and something is telling me that i let a good chance go by due to this depressive booze overload...

well, enough with the rant, hope all you guys are alright. laters.

I can relate..

I believe the old "the chase is more exciting than the kill" theory.

I have blown off girls in the past that i knew were a sure thing, that had i not known them, would have walked over a pile of newborns to HIT.. Strange shit we do..

As far as the drinking, well, i can't talk..

I know i drink too much, but, i feel too much is better than not enough.

O.k., i didn't say i could help, just relate.

i like your reply uncle b, you make a lot of sense on both counts, have a good one buddy.

Same to you bud.

dude,,,, Im going through shades of that now,,,,

I try to put it in check by drinking water and going to bed early,,,, and waking up even earlier,,,, (4 am sometimes I will wake,),this has helped,,,,

its funny when you like a girl,,, and some how she has weaseled her way into our hearts,,,, by way of respect, and friendship,,, you obviously respect this chick too,,,

unlike the Hos you and I trade off every other week,,, haha,,,,

who knows,,,, I have a few "girlfriends" and they are 100% HOT .... but I couldnt touch them,,,cause somehow we became friends,,,
ok,,I ll shut up now,,,,
and No Im not drinking ,,,,yet,,,,,
Tater

after reading my stupid post,,,I poured myself a drink,,,

UGH,,,,,

Tater

it was a good post tate, thanks man.

tate-
makes since to me

If it were my ex in a bar..and I had nothing else going on that night...she would have been coming home with me.

Just be careful with the EX thing.. it's way too easy to get tied back down because of that thing called CONVENIENCE.

go back to the Ex's and settle down when you are balding and getting fat.. thats my theory anyway.

Jack Dee,nothing to worry about.
Only thing you need is a new gf