Could have been, but if so was very subconscious. It was really one of those things where I was in a total groove from one perspective, but surely the stress was there and it all came to the surface. It was a sign even someone that tried to make sure he didn't succumb to the typical attitude of a casino customer did just that. Lost my focus on the "real world" way too easily. As most gamblers do I could stop looking at bets as non-gambling items, such as a $1000 bet could be a weeks cruise, but that night when I thought about the car I was clearly lost.
I did think about middling or taking down some risk, but that being a high ML game the takeback was too low. Further for the 30 minutes until the game started I started convincing myself it would be an easy win. Only during the game as it unfolded did it really get the best of me.
Merely a cautionary tale, don't lose perspective no matter how good or bad you are running. There are good reasons to set up a plan of attack and even better reasons not to deviate from it.
