Wow, I think some attention needs to be paid to your post. Your username suggests you are in college, we have all been there my man, it takes hitting rock bottom to finally start to get better. Gambling preys on college kids looking for the easy buck. The important thing is to take a step back, look at the big picture, be thankful for things in your life that don't have to do with damn money. Money is probably clouding all of your thinking and when one gets on tilt that bad they can be very dangerous. Try your best to ween yourself from gambling, you need a break, a break where you don't bet AT ALL.
Above all, don't do anything stupid and hurt yourself, there are lots of people that would be hurt and miss you.