bulldog, sorry to hear that happened. Damn, man. I'll tell you, it is good to vent with others on here. I find it very helpful.
I know some here don't understand, but sometimes this whole bit can be so very frustrating and just telling someone here is a HUGE release. It doesn't make up for the lost chance at the 10,000 BJ hand, but very few people outside these boards would understand how you feel.
Damn, this can be gut-wrenching stuff. I still gotta say that I love it. tulsa