TRYTRYTRY is back back back. Hello Again RX!
Wow I leave for a month and what do I return to in the offshore world!
Cripes the sky is falling out there. I can not believe all this stuff I am
reading. I did see some USA today stuff on BOS but did not read much
til today. Don’t worry all we will trytrytry to get things straight.
Sorry for the drama from a month ago. But what a great
month it has been for me
And thanks to all those who gave me some support, their own experiences, encouragement,
offers for help, EMAILS and some good hard nosed advise. I was moving out
of control with the time and efforts spent on this (compulsive in nature,
and it threw out of rhythm all aspects of my life, there were some things
I was avoiding out there and the time spent on doing something I
Was great at seemed to feel good for a while until that toppled as well.
Interesting the professional was much less interested in the few large
losing wagers that were lost compared to the reasons for the compulsive
nature of working so hard on this (much in secret) over the last few years
that led up to that topple). Sort of a "work aholic" with a "risk addiction"
is how it was described to me. Except this is was never a job for me.
So so so
I have a new approach on things, still have my passions, and hobbies and
skills, but a new rhythm to life (includes regular sleeping hours,
exercise time, date nights, spiritual time, career building work time,
additional learning, some joint hobbies with loved ones and friends,
volunteer time and sure hobbies and sports time).
I spent time on family vacations, exercise, date nights, playground
baseball assistant coaching, watching the mighty Twins get after it,
kept an eye on Barbaros situation (great efforts by that team so far).
Talked to all my key friends and family members on issues
(and lingering issues) and everyone was so supportive. There was
actually a bunch going on and turning 40 also added to things.
If I can quote REM "I feel fine" . Will not be the same trytrytry as
before but will be an active trytrytry forum member but a trytrytry
with balance in his life! Ill start back with some contests and ease into
things. I cashed out quite a bit but I still have a few accounts funded
decent as I had rollovers that needed to be completed before cash out
anyway so Ill start there. But it will be a slow ramp up and the ramp
will not be a steep one.
Listened to some great old music. And Im choosing balance, rhythm,
honesty, Changes and and and FREEWILL….
</PRE>
Changes - Bowie
I still don't know what I was waiting for
And my time was running wild
A million dead-end streets
Every time I thought I'd got it made
It seemed the taste was not so sweet
So I turned myself to face me
But I've never caught a glimpse
Of how the others must see the faker
I'm much too fast to take that test
Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
(Turn and face the stranger)
Ch-ch-Changes
Don't want to be a richer man
Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
(Turn and face the stranger)
Ch-ch-Changes
Just gonna have to be a different man
Time may change me
But I can't trace time
</PRE>
"FREEWILL" -Rush
There are those who think that life has nothing left to chance,
A host of holy horrors to direct our aimless dance.
A planet of playthings,
We dance on the strings
Of powers we cannot perceive
"The stars aren't aligned -
Or the gods are malign"
Blame is better to give than receive.
You can choose a ready guide in some celestial voice.
If you choose not to decide, you still have made a choice.
You can choose from phantom fears and kindness that can kill;
I will choose a path that's clear-
I will choose Free Will.
There are those who think that they were dealt a losing hand,
The cards were stacked against them- they weren't born in Lotus-Land.
All preordained-
A prisoner in chains-
A victim of venomous fate.
Kicked in the face,
You can't pray for a place
In heaven's unearthly estate.
Each of us-
A cell of awareness-
Imperfect and incomplete.
Genetic blends
With uncertain ends
On a fortune hunt that's far too fleet
</PRE>
Wow I leave for a month and what do I return to in the offshore world!
Cripes the sky is falling out there. I can not believe all this stuff I am
reading. I did see some USA today stuff on BOS but did not read much
til today. Don’t worry all we will trytrytry to get things straight.
Sorry for the drama from a month ago. But what a great
month it has been for me
And thanks to all those who gave me some support, their own experiences, encouragement,
offers for help, EMAILS and some good hard nosed advise. I was moving out
of control with the time and efforts spent on this (compulsive in nature,
and it threw out of rhythm all aspects of my life, there were some things
I was avoiding out there and the time spent on doing something I
Was great at seemed to feel good for a while until that toppled as well.
Interesting the professional was much less interested in the few large
losing wagers that were lost compared to the reasons for the compulsive
nature of working so hard on this (much in secret) over the last few years
that led up to that topple). Sort of a "work aholic" with a "risk addiction"
is how it was described to me. Except this is was never a job for me.
So so so
I have a new approach on things, still have my passions, and hobbies and
skills, but a new rhythm to life (includes regular sleeping hours,
exercise time, date nights, spiritual time, career building work time,
additional learning, some joint hobbies with loved ones and friends,
volunteer time and sure hobbies and sports time).
I spent time on family vacations, exercise, date nights, playground
baseball assistant coaching, watching the mighty Twins get after it,
kept an eye on Barbaros situation (great efforts by that team so far).
Talked to all my key friends and family members on issues
(and lingering issues) and everyone was so supportive. There was
actually a bunch going on and turning 40 also added to things.
If I can quote REM "I feel fine" . Will not be the same trytrytry as
before but will be an active trytrytry forum member but a trytrytry
with balance in his life! Ill start back with some contests and ease into
things. I cashed out quite a bit but I still have a few accounts funded
decent as I had rollovers that needed to be completed before cash out
anyway so Ill start there. But it will be a slow ramp up and the ramp
will not be a steep one.
Listened to some great old music. And Im choosing balance, rhythm,
honesty, Changes and and and FREEWILL….
</PRE>
Changes - Bowie
I still don't know what I was waiting for
And my time was running wild
A million dead-end streets
Every time I thought I'd got it made
It seemed the taste was not so sweet
So I turned myself to face me
But I've never caught a glimpse
Of how the others must see the faker
I'm much too fast to take that test
Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
(Turn and face the stranger)
Ch-ch-Changes
Don't want to be a richer man
Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
(Turn and face the stranger)
Ch-ch-Changes
Just gonna have to be a different man
Time may change me
But I can't trace time
</PRE>
"FREEWILL" -Rush
There are those who think that life has nothing left to chance,
A host of holy horrors to direct our aimless dance.
A planet of playthings,
We dance on the strings
Of powers we cannot perceive
"The stars aren't aligned -
Or the gods are malign"
Blame is better to give than receive.
You can choose a ready guide in some celestial voice.
If you choose not to decide, you still have made a choice.
You can choose from phantom fears and kindness that can kill;
I will choose a path that's clear-
I will choose Free Will.
There are those who think that they were dealt a losing hand,
The cards were stacked against them- they weren't born in Lotus-Land.
All preordained-
A prisoner in chains-
A victim of venomous fate.
Kicked in the face,
You can't pray for a place
In heaven's unearthly estate.
Each of us-
A cell of awareness-
Imperfect and incomplete.
Genetic blends
With uncertain ends
On a fortune hunt that's far too fleet
</PRE>