I have gotten a few e-mails lately asking where I have been.
About a couple of months ago it was a Friday night around 10:30 I was in my room studying games and writing down lines and line moves. Circling games I was interested in and sweating out my Friday night bets. I believe I went 0-5 or something and went to bed extremely pissed off. I got a phone call from a buddy whos party I ended up skipping out on that night and I realized right then that I need to make some changes in my life.
I realized that my stress levels were about 20 times of a lot of my friends and people around me. Even when I went out I was thinking about my bets and always checking Espn for some scores when I had a chance. Nobody I was ever with had that type of stress and I became somewhat jealous of the simplicity of their lives at points. When in school I realized that I had wasted a perfect opportunity to still be a kid. Ya, I had a great time there and plenty of great memories, but not as much as a lot of people. I grew up a lot faster then most and started worrying about finances and the future more then anyone I knew. I took that time for granite not realizing that once you hit the world afterwards that time would be truly missed. It made me think of a great qoute - one in which I had not taken seriously enough -
"ive learned one thing and thats to quit worrying about stupid things. you have 4 years to be irresponsible here. relax. work is for people with jobs. youll never remember class time, but you will remember the times you wasted hanging out with your friends. so, stay out late. go out on a tuesday with your friends when you have a paper due wednesday. spend money you dont have. drink till sunrise. the work never ends, but college does. -tom petty"
This qoute doesn't have to be just college though, but it can be for life in away. I see alot of stress going on about the thought of gambling coming to an end. For some of you I can understand. It would be like being a mail man and having the fear of mail ending because this IS YOUR JOB.
For all you other guys, its not the end of the world. Really. Take a break for awhile, and before you go back seriously consider if its worth it.
I can't tell you how much more I am loving life now. I notice the little things that I never did when I was sweating out the end of the game when winning seemed to be the only thing that mattered. The thing about that is it never seemed good enough, a win is a win and it always leaves you wanting more. Gambling is like cocaine and each win is like a line. You do a line and it feels great, but you always want that longer rail but after you take a bigger one its only enough to keep you on that high for just a little while, then when thats done you are right back at the same point.
All I am really saying is that don't let your life revolve around this as I can tell some of you do. Hell I have over 5000 posts on this forum and many more on here have more then I do. Just think of your life before you began gambling, I am sure for most of you it may have been richer then, then it is now even if you have more money now then when you started (Which I am sure you do, because nobody here loses!)
About a couple of months ago it was a Friday night around 10:30 I was in my room studying games and writing down lines and line moves. Circling games I was interested in and sweating out my Friday night bets. I believe I went 0-5 or something and went to bed extremely pissed off. I got a phone call from a buddy whos party I ended up skipping out on that night and I realized right then that I need to make some changes in my life.
I realized that my stress levels were about 20 times of a lot of my friends and people around me. Even when I went out I was thinking about my bets and always checking Espn for some scores when I had a chance. Nobody I was ever with had that type of stress and I became somewhat jealous of the simplicity of their lives at points. When in school I realized that I had wasted a perfect opportunity to still be a kid. Ya, I had a great time there and plenty of great memories, but not as much as a lot of people. I grew up a lot faster then most and started worrying about finances and the future more then anyone I knew. I took that time for granite not realizing that once you hit the world afterwards that time would be truly missed. It made me think of a great qoute - one in which I had not taken seriously enough -
"ive learned one thing and thats to quit worrying about stupid things. you have 4 years to be irresponsible here. relax. work is for people with jobs. youll never remember class time, but you will remember the times you wasted hanging out with your friends. so, stay out late. go out on a tuesday with your friends when you have a paper due wednesday. spend money you dont have. drink till sunrise. the work never ends, but college does. -tom petty"
This qoute doesn't have to be just college though, but it can be for life in away. I see alot of stress going on about the thought of gambling coming to an end. For some of you I can understand. It would be like being a mail man and having the fear of mail ending because this IS YOUR JOB.
For all you other guys, its not the end of the world. Really. Take a break for awhile, and before you go back seriously consider if its worth it.
I can't tell you how much more I am loving life now. I notice the little things that I never did when I was sweating out the end of the game when winning seemed to be the only thing that mattered. The thing about that is it never seemed good enough, a win is a win and it always leaves you wanting more. Gambling is like cocaine and each win is like a line. You do a line and it feels great, but you always want that longer rail but after you take a bigger one its only enough to keep you on that high for just a little while, then when thats done you are right back at the same point.
All I am really saying is that don't let your life revolve around this as I can tell some of you do. Hell I have over 5000 posts on this forum and many more on here have more then I do. Just think of your life before you began gambling, I am sure for most of you it may have been richer then, then it is now even if you have more money now then when you started (Which I am sure you do, because nobody here loses!)
