Today I am celebrating 60 days clean and sober today...

BIGSHOTMAXXX · Oct 17, 2007

I have been struggling with drugs and alcohol my whole life, and the past two years of my life have been complete hell. I wont get into it but lets just say life is MUCH better for me these days. I had put together 3 years of sobriety til 2 years ago when I thought, for some reason I could go out with some friends for just one night, then get back on the wagon. Two years later I lost my apartment, my job, my relationship with everyone in my family are gone for going on one year, etc, etc....

I am not mentioning this for any type of accolades or sympothy, only that if I can do it, and someone reads this and needs help or wants to know how I am doing it, am here anytime...just ask a mod for my email and we can talk. My life is a day at a time and with the help of AA, my life is slowly changing for the better. Its amazing to know that I can put my head on my pillow at night, knowing I havent deliberately hurt anyone or endangered someones life by my selfish actions. I am not looking over my shoulder or afraid to see someone that I cant remember what happened the night before that I may have offended.

Its not easy, but worst day sober is better than my best day drinking. Just for today I have been relieved from the obsession to drink or use drugs, and I thank god for that...

god bless,
bsm

joeyfitzclick · Oct 17, 2007

Congrats. Sincerely.

G.MONEY · Oct 17, 2007

I hope and wish you continued success

BankerC · Oct 17, 2007

congrats, I went through the same shit with painkillers. Fucking bastards controlled my life. I have been clean about 6 months and I am pissed because now I see how much of my life was wasted getting high.

lifexpired · Oct 17, 2007

i cant handle sobriety myself, but good to see some others getting their lives cleaned up

TTinCO · Oct 17, 2007

Congrats Max. This rocky road of life can be a rough sumbitch can't it?

Keep it up & stick with it.

BIGSHOTMAXXX · Oct 17, 2007

thanks fellas, I am on the right track and appreciate the support. To those struggling, maybe to a meeting. Its very hard, but very much worth it!!

I dont miss waking up in jail not knowing how or why I got there!!

steaktartar · Oct 17, 2007

congrats i couldnt do it you're a better man than me

minet123 · Oct 17, 2007

Max,
I just had 6 years clean on Monday I see your in Phialdelphia
If you need someone to talk to or would like to check out some other meeting out here Malvern/Phoenixville have Will give you my email address

VIEJODINOSAUR · Oct 17, 2007

BIGSHOTMAXXX..one day at a time from a member of the Philly faithful...stay the course brother..

jasin4000 · Oct 17, 2007

"they" say it takes 21 days to break a habbit..

Good Job Maxx

BIGSHOTMAXXX · Oct 17, 2007

I go to Malvern (Saint Joseph in the Hills) twice a year for Matt Talbot retreats...beautiful area, I will ask Wil to email me your info...thanks!! Congrats on your 6 years....

Again guys thanks for the support...

minet123 said:
Max,
I just had 6 years clean on Monday I see your in Phialdelphia
If you need someone to talk to or would like to check out some other meeting out here Malvern/Phoenixville have Will give you my email address

gynecologist · Oct 17, 2007

Great job BIGSHOTMAXXX.

You never know who might be reading this probably helped a lot of people. Stay clean

EVincent · Oct 17, 2007

Glad to hear you are beating your demons. Best of luck to you.

BillyWaltersJr+ · Oct 17, 2007

Congratsulations man!

fhmesq44 · Oct 17, 2007

congrats Maxx, keep strong and best of luck.

mrhognuts2 · Oct 17, 2007

aa has taught me that i will have peace of mind in exact proportion to the peace of mind i bring into the lives of other people,and it has taught me the true meaning of the admonition 'happy are ye who know these things and do them.'for the only problems i have now are those i create when i break out in a rash of self -will. logan p.....14 years clean and sober......'keep the continue'

sniper101 · Oct 17, 2007

Being clean from drugs for over a year now, and did them for 7 plus years heavily daily...I dont understand the whole meeting thing, when i was in "rehab" i clashed with 99% of the other people, i was the 1% who believed i didnt need them and still dont...I have never once attended a AA meeting or a NA meeting, and dont plan on it in the future...My feelings strictly believe, if i cant do this on my own without everyone always saying that u need to stay away, and u need a "sober network", i am doomed for failure, if for some reason i cant attend that so called social gathering nightly with the rest of my kind, i might as well just push myself over the edge and get back to what i was doing previously...

Why not take the daily meetings u attend and put that time towards sometthing more positive thing for you, as in meeting new friends (its the same people at those meetings nightly looking for reassurance from 1 another), pyschical activity, or some type of sports club (being basketball, softball, etc etc...) Myabe it just doesnt click with me, that i need the same 'type' of people always around me, and i cant venture out into actual public and not step back to my previous ways...Either way though, congrats on your sobriety, hope it continues in a succesful path for the rest of your life, regardless how u choose to achieve that comfort zone.. Mine just differs from everyone else in the journey through life...

:toast: when should i pick ya up?

nhoj · Oct 17, 2007

I will drink to that!! Bartender give 3 shots of ice water.

nhoj · Oct 17, 2007

and whats that bad taste in my mouth and why does my butthole hurt so bad. I bet you are glad them days are over!!! Keep up the good work. my brother told me when he sobered up he didn't now where all his money came from. I told him he just didnt remeber where it all went when he was wasted. Just put everything you would normally spend on drugs in a jar for a week and see how much you got at the end of the week. It will surprise you. Then wait until Tuesday night and put it all on a hockey parlay.:lol:

I dont miss waking up in jail not knowing how or why I got there!![/quote]