creeg....stop..but get a book at amazon called
Your Money and Your Brain: How the New Science of Neuroeconomics Can Help Make You Rich
u can get it used in paperback for $4 and hard cover for $10
it will not make you rich that is not the point but it does an amazing job of explaining exaclty why you go 3-1 and hate it...
and by knowing why (its all brain chemistry there is nothing actually wrong with you at all)...it will help you understand those feelings and then just about ignore them and get back to gambling on overlays and positive expectations wagering and making this a fun hobby again...