first, let me say that im sorry for your loss. second, i dont understand why you feel it is necessary to post stuff like this on a sports betting/gambling forum. do you have friends or family that you can speak with in person? im not trying to be rude or cold hearted but this just seems like an attention getting ploy to me. for whatever reason....just kind of strange dude...
Ditto to this.
It's not as hard as you think it's gonna be. It's like some weird instinctual thing, I just don't comprehend/display the grief during that part, it's the anticipation of it and the settling in of the feelings afterwards that always get to me. I've had to carry buddies in their 20's to their final resting place while mothers and fathers wept and it just didn't ever register at that moment. Someone in their 90's...I mean, death happens, be thankful she lived that long of a life and you all were blessed to know her for that long.
I'm the same way, just use it to your advantage for that one day. Don't let your emotions come out for that one day, because others in your family will be looking to you to be a rock. That's what I always tell myself...that I'll be the rock in the moment and then deal with my emotions more privately.
